Just Call Me Grandma

Hi Everyone,

It is still fairly quiet around here. Mark and I are working a lot. We are enjoying the summer weather. We have gone on a few bike rides, but mainly I enjoy sleeping!! We have our good days, but out of the blue a bad day smacks us in the face. I think this will be the norm for us for the rest of our lives. Mark had to have routine labs drawn the other day and while he was there, a code was called to come and resuscitate someone. All the emotions from when Wo was in the hospital came flooding back and he said he felt like he was having a panic attack. This kind of thing happens now and then and it hurts. Every day as I am going to the cemetery after work to say hi to Wo, I often think that it is not right that I have to visit my beautiful daughter in a cemetery. I should be going to her house and having dinner. Not talking to a stone with her name and picture on it.

On a lighter, happier note, Kristen and Bruce are going to be parents!! I am going to be a Grandma!!!We couldn't be happier to welcome a new baby to our family. Did I mention the baby is a precious girl!!! So very excited. I know this baby won't take away the pain of losing Wo, but she will add a new dimension of love that will fill our hearts.

I am excited for this weekend because the whole family is getting together on Sunday at my Mom and Dad's house. Our sweet, little great-niece will be there for the first time. We always have fun when we are all together.

We had to have our 13 year old dog, Frank, put to sleep last week. I hope he is keeping Wo company in heaven. We will miss his sweet face.



Frank in his younger days.

That is about it for now. I will probably only check in once a month or so from now on because I really don't have much to say that hasn't already been said. We are all just trying to live our lives and heal our hearts. Thanks so much for still caring.

Love,
-Pam

 

 The Pink family back in the day before Ryan. Kind of blurry and cut off. Sis and Wo are so precious.

Life Goes On

Hi Everyone,
 I have not posted in forever, but I see people are still checking out my blog, so I feel an obligation to keep posting. Our lives are anything but interesting. But, as promised, as long as you are reading, I will keep writing.

 We had a quiet 4th of July at home. We swam in the pool and got Old Carolina for dinner. Mark and I did not go to fireworks as it is still too painful for us. Wo loved fireworks and she went every year with us since she was a tiny kid. Seeing families all together is still too difficult for us. Ryan and Stephanie did go downtown Canton to see some. Sis and Bruce went somewhere in Michigan to see fireworks and hear a symphony orchestra. We are happy that our kids are having fun. One day we hope to be able to to enjoy the 4th again!! Mark and I did go to the cemetery on the 3rd and lit sparklers for Wo. Mark said they were the kind she loved the most. Always thinking about our sweet girl.

I so wish our lives were how they used to be. So much laughter and fun before Lauren was sick. She was definitely the life of the party. I was just remembering when I was in the pool the other day that Wo was such a stinker. Always trying to tip me over in my float, splash me and get my hair wet, or create a huge tidal wave in the pool by pushing a float up and down, making lots of water splash everywhere. Her being gone has left such a huge hole in our lives.

We are doing better, but holidays are just too hard to deal with sometimes. I'm sure as years pass, it will get better for us. I hope you all are doing well and have loving families in your lives. That is the greatest gift of all. Until next time...

Love,
-Pam




She was so beautiful!!